Hope is misplaced

If I should commit suicide one day,

Let the cause reach my well-wishers this way.

Did she misplace her baby; my mother

Or was it a miscarriage, yet another.

Is it in the blood that a relationship lie,

For then I’m more than happy to die.

Tell me wind, do you hear me cry?

If not, how can this distraint dry.

My laughter echoes through others

But to share my sorrow, I have no brothers.

A damsel came to my life, not far back in time

Now no more in my life, a song ruined of rhyme.

She changed, in front my very eyes

Pure love it is, gave me no cries.

Let another come and be my wife

But not claim her place, it would breathe strife.

The hail, the pellets, won’t they fall

To wash away the voidness that crawl

Within the depths of my lonely soul

For even they have a family, the repulsive troll.

I have some questions that need answers

Not a soul, exists, my presumption of good chances

Will answer them and relieve me of my pain

To continue with life, why, I have none to gain.

I’ve searched day by day, but none have I found

Merciful enough to pass on a judgement sound.

Why do I keep asking them, only to provoke them laugh

And join them in their laughter, I’ve mocked myself enough.

The holistic spirits that I no longer appease

A punishment betrothed, that is nowhere to cease

Created the sun, the moon to keep track of time

But not a day, a night; I won’t give him a dime.

The world’s a benighted place

Devoid a particular taste.

It has nothing I long

So is it where I belong?